***DISCLAIMER***
Yep,
even for this story, pets. But a short one just warning you that I
had only skimmed the first part and had only given this second part
one go over in my head. That said...please enjoy. :)
It
had been a week since I last saw My Goddess, the session that turned
into a little cuddlefest afterward. I still couldn't get the question
out of my head, the one she asked me about You. It wasn't that it was
a bad question on whether You were gay or not, it's just every time I
thought about it I could feel my heart racing. I had hopes for what
it would be but I had been burned by hope far too many times before,
so I could never answer it. Even in the privacy of my own mind. You
were...perfect. You were happy and loved and whoever you decided to
share those feelings with would never know how lucky they were.
“Sasha?”
The
entire week I spent at my desk watching You pass by. Despite the
rumours, which I'm certain You've heard by now, You never let on. It
didn't even matter who was the one flirting, You would never react
any differently. I always wondered what You'd do if I ever approached
You.
“Sasha?
You in there?”
I
blinked a few times as a means of coming back down to earth. I stared
across the table through the thin veil of steam rising up at my
coffee to my sister, Heather. Christmas was closing in fast and she
had come down to visit my parents making the two hour drive to come
for this lunch date with me. I knew of her intentions but my mind had
already been set.
“Thought
I lost you there for a second.” Her blond curls danced as she
giggled into her coffee cup while taking a sip. I simply smiled back
at her resting my hands over my own feeling the warmth run through my
body. That was all I ever needed it seemed on these days.
“I've
been getting that a lot lately.” I reply looking down into my
coffee with a smile, wondering if Heather could notice my blushing.
She must have, especially with the way she was leaning in close to me
so her voice could be soft.
“Katherine?”
I
looked up at her. No matter how long she's been in the know of my
secret hobby it's still always a shock to my system every time she
reminds me how she knows. How I told her, how...she's been dying for
me to introduce the two of them. I'm sure it's a part of her reason
for coming down here but she's going to be met with her own surprise.
Meaning I can't as it has too much to deal with the other reason
she's here.
“Last
night?” I shake my head quickly and look around the cafe hoping she
gets touch of my nervousness in discussing this in such an open
place. Thankfully she understands and rests back in her seat a little
disappointed but she still moves on. “So mom and dad are really
looking forward to you coming down for Christmas this year. Think you
can make it?”
Exactly
what I needed but at the same time not what I wanted. I hate
disappointing my family even since they're so close. Well, my sister
isn't, but there's no real excuse for me to be skipping out on my
parents. Unfortunately this just has to be one of those times. My
Goddess had already asked my attendance to her home throughout the
holiday season and, despite feeling low admitting this, I found I
could have more fun with her. Besides, it's what I need to help get
You from my thoughts. This is why I haven't introduced Heather to My
Goddess.
“I'm
sorry.”
“Plans?”
I
respond with a nod. “I'm meeting some friends.” It was the last
thing I said for a while because it was the last time I could look
her in the eyes throughout the rest of our time together. She later
invited me to go shopping but I wasn't in the mood. She didn't take
it too hard, she's staying with me a couple days anyway. Still...
As
soon as we parted after lunch, I sent out a text to My Goddess
wondering if I could come over for a quickie session. Just something
to help relieve the stress. She said she was entertaining someone
soon but that a third party would be more than welcome. I agreed, it
would be more intense but insisted on keeping anonymous. Aside from
Heather I didn't need anyone else to know. She told me she couldn't
agree more and said she would be waiting.
The
bus ride to My Goddess' apartment seemed to be taking forever, a lot
longer than usual. I know it was just me but still, no matter how
hard I tried to focus on something else I couldn't help but count the
seconds I was on the bus. I just wanted to get there so I could get
off in more ways than one. It also didn't help that it was difficult
to think of what My Goddess would be doing to me. Given just how full
the bus was I didn't want to begin allowing my thoughts lead me into
something else. So I stood there holding onto a railing being jostled
around by the turns and potholes in the road.
But
then at one stop I found my heart just stop as You stepped up onto
it. I stared across at You, watching as You weaved your way through
the crowd of those in between us. You came to a stop just a couple
feet from my position and took hold of the railing yourself. I
swallowed but felt a hardness in my throat that must have been my
heart. I guess You must have heard that as You turned around and
smiled at me for a brief moment before turning to look back out the
window. Part of me wishes one of us had said something, to break the
ice between us. But like You, I just watched out the window until the
setting became more and more familiar.
The
next stop came, my stop, and I saw You turn for the door. I wasn't
sure why at first but eventually I calmed down figuring You were just
looking for something else in the neighbourhood. It didn't help that
You were going up the street in the same direction as me, it almost
felt as though I were following your every move. Or, as I had wished
it, like You were leading me. Leading me to a place I had yearned all
my life to get to.
After
following you for a few blocks I saw My Goddess' apartment coming up
close. I was both relieved and saddened that this time we had would
be coming to a close. For one I felt like a stalker following You all
this way but if this were the way we were both going... But then I
paused when You made that sharp right and seemed to dance Your way up
the up the concrete steps entering through the door with ease. I
stood there watching You go wondering...if You were going for the
same thing as myself. My mind worked on excuses on why You would go
into an apartment with My Goddess unwilling to land on what I had
hoped for.
“You
just have a place here.” I said to myself quietly as I tried
working up my courage to follow You inside. But just inside, I know
that where I was going was completely different than Your own
destination. After waiting for what seemed like minutes, I made my
way up the steps and inside to ready myself for the session with My
Goddess.
Kind
of a tease ending but I really want the session to work out. So...to
be continued, pets. :P
Katalina
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